Stuck.
A feeling more than a reality on this Monday, but then feelings matter.
Stuck trying to figure out how to do something with and for each grandchild that Jud and I’d planned to do.
Not so easy to bring about without my other bookend.
Totter-able.
That’s how I feel some days.
Teetering…too easily toppled.
Missing that steady hand, arm, mind to help me narrow options, consider “all angles.”
As a possibility thinker, I swim in options, until realities remind me of limitations.
Yesterday Basil piped up with,”Momo, you’re almost 80! That’s awesome!”
To a 6 year old, 76 must seem almost 80.
As time races and funnels down, I sense life’s almost.
The challenge?
To age without losing Basil’s sense of “That’s awesome.”
To resist growing too old to wonder, be amazed, left breathless at some thing or some one each day until there are no more.
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Good morning, Jan:
You may be 76 but you haven’t let the aging process slow you down. You amaze me with your energies and resilience. Continue to model for the rest of us “oldies” what growing old gracefully looks like. You are missed at CCH!!
Randy for the Mathews
Jan isn’t the challenge of every age to remember “it’s awesome”. We live in a society that looks for the next best thing. The loses in my life have taught me to enjoy now. I love doing……for others, for the Church, for my family but the older I get the sitting quiet times are more precious. I am fortunate enough to still have my husband. but as others become widows I wonder about those days for myself. I look to older wiser Christian women to teach me for what may be to come.
Jan: Having just gotten off the overnight flight from DC to the UK, feeling all the accompanying aches and pains, it is so good to be reminded that life is awesome and every day with grandchildren is a treasure ! Sending much love to you, David and Suzy
To age without losing Basil’s sense of “That’s awesome.”
To resist growing too old to wonder, be amazed, left breathless at some thing or some one each day until there are no more.
I think that you want to hold onto the wonder and amazement is half the battle! You can do it!! Love your grandchildren, they are pretty “awesome”!
Teach us to number our days aright, that we may gain a heart of wisdom (Ps. 90:12)
Thanks to Basil and you for helping us to number our days aright.